From this day forward, I no longer shall tinker with the machinery of death.
Justice Harry Blackmun, United States Supreme Court, February 22, 1994.
Maybe no one
can save you –
not even
the girl who wrote
on rose-scented notepaper –
not even a younger you
trout fishing in Gunnison,
your reel’s rakish spin
as the rainbow bolts
for deep water,
not even God
who made the gasping fish,
or me, brother, your last lawyer –
maybe all that’s left
is your father swinging
the lever over and over
trying to hoist the stone
from your chest, your skin
paling in its sleeve of death,
needle poised, curtain open.
Header photograph © S. Schirl Smith.
Jodie English founded a poetry journal in high school, then took a forty two year detour from creative writing to serve as a criminal defense attorney fighting for clients facing the death penalty. After seven years of night classes, and writing her thesis in between court cases, she earned an MFA in Creative Writing from Butler University in 2014. Having never lost a client to execution, she is clear that it is time to transition to a life where writing and meaning-making take precedence over survival. This is her first published poem.